So... P's probation hearing didn't go well this morning. Part of me is wonderfully amused at this because he deserves it.

The other part of me is frigging pissed at him once again because my parents don't deserve this.

He didn't complete his community service. He "thought he could convince the judge to give him an extension." Instead she's charging him $2000 by November 1 or else he'll be going to prison for 2 years. My parents will of course be giving him more than half, because they're frigging suckers.

ETA: This also means they're not going to make him take care of my car. "But he owes so much in such a short time, Isi, surely you can forgive him this one debt! Oh, and by the way where is my part of your paycheck, because we can't let you postpone paying that money you owe us or you'll never learn your lesson."

I think I don't complain that often about my family. They're annoying, but in general I love the lot of them a great deal, especially my parents and my sister and my other brother (these two siblings do not live with us anymore, and perhaps the increase in love is not coincidental ;) :-").

But I hate my oldest sibling, P. I - *sigh* no, I don't hate him. I don't hate anybody. I'm just very very angry and very very stressed.

He had to borrow my car today when his broke down.

He smoked. Inside. MY. CAR.

Stupid, stupid, stupid fucker. I actually said "Fucker" aloud in the parking lot at work. Luckily no kiddos were about, nor their parents.

The worst part though, is my father. His entire response was "Don't yell at him" and "You just need to roll the windows down."

I can't even...

And then later, when I tell P he can't drive my car ever again, he gets pissed at me!

And the topper? The cherry on the ice cream sundae that was today?

P BOUGHT A NEW CAR, ON DAD'S CREDIT.

So basically he gets a new car and gets to turn my car into a fucking ashtray. Good fucking day for him, huh?

:D *bouncebounce* I am a daycare worker now!!!!!!!! I'm so happy. I can deal with working this job because 1. I can put it on my resume and actually use it to get the job I really want. 2. I'm getting steady money, obviously *giggles* 3. I love kids, even when I hate them. 4. When I do adopt/otherwise receive my child, not matter what age I'll have a pretty good idea how best to care for them. :D

At the moment I hate myself very much.

Most of the people on my flist probably won't understand this. I can't think of even one of you who wants what I want.

I want a baby so very badly - not today, but just... someday. And it's possible - likely - that I have damaged myself so much that I will never, ever be able to have any, even after I lose the weight.

*cries*

I hate myself so, so much right now.

Limo Service: $300
Hotel: $468
Spa: $400
Accessories: $300
Time away from family: Priceless.

List 20 of your current favorite fictional character pairings (het, slash, canon or otherwise) in no particular order and then tag 4 people to do the same (which I, personally, never do *giggle*).

( mmmpairings )

My sister just got diagnosed with a disease called ITP. She's been in pain for the past couple of months, but the doctors say this shouldn't be causing pain. *sigh* So something else is wrong with her, too.

Mom wants to go up. I don't know that she wouldn't be welcome, but Becky is sometimes wierd. *sigh*

The Rules
First, write down the names of 12 characters. Then read and answer the questions.
You can't look at the questions (or click on the cut) until you write down the 12 characters you're going to use.

01) Harry Potter
02) Kingsley Shacklebolt
03) Neville Longbottom
04) Blaise Zabini
05) Ron Weasley
06) Draco Malfoy
07) Bill Weasley
08) James Potter
09) Remus Lupin
10) Viktor Krum
11) Justin Finch-Fletchley
12) Severus Snape

( The Questions )

ETA: Added five questions and the pairings at each question. Amy. :D

So blame her.

Lonely No More by Rob Thomas

Passenger Seat by SheDaisy

Baby Got Back by Sir Mix-a-Lot

She Drives Me Crazy by Fine Young Cannibals

Crazy for this Girl by Evan and Jaron

Kiss from a Rose by Seal

Bring it All to Me by Blaque feat JC Chasez

I'm not tagging anyone, but if you want to do it: Rules: Pick seven songs that you're into right now, list them. Pick seven friends who have to repeat this process, list them.

I don't like Ginny. I never really have done. I wouldn't go so far as to call her a slut - hell, my grandmother would tell me that the way Ginny dates is the best way to do it. Apparently it's very traditional to date around rather a lot before making a proper match. And certainly there's nothing to indicate that she's had sex - which is sort of a requirement for being a slut, isn't it, having sex indiscriminately?

So I wouldn't call her a slut. But it seems as though fandom is saying that's it not okay to dislike her. Why do I even have to have a quantifiable reason? Why am I not allowed to just not. Like. Ginny? And why, when I can't think of a quantifiable reason, is the response "OMGWTFCANDYCANE!!!!!1!!one!!!!!! U need 2 get a life 'cos Hary's not real and he would sooooooooo never like U even if he was!!!!!!!!!!111one!!!!!!!"? Why is it assumed that I don't like Ginny because she got Harry, when I don't seem, to you*, to have a "good" reason?


* this "you" has no particular reference and is used in the plural form to indicate a general "you" encompassing only those who actually feel that way.

Okay, so, job interview tomorrow. Yayayay!!!

BUT... what she's looking for is a preschool teacher. *wibbles* I... don't know if I can do that! I didn't even ask her if you need to be certified!!!! *wibbleswibbles* I ph34r ickle baby children sometimes too *wibblessomuchomg*

*takes deep breath*

Ask any of the characters from any of my fics a question, and they will answer. Possibly even honestly. Or possibly not. :D

ETA: OMG TINY SWEET BUNNY *IZ DED*

From, like. Everyone.

( Isi and Isi-Sue )

True Story. A religion teacher assigned her class an essay on what makes a good Christian. One student wrote about praying nightly, say no to abortion, banning gay marriage, and donating money. The other student wrote about talking to God and allowing people to enjoy their lives, and supporting gay marriage. The day the teacher was to hand the papers back, she called up the second student and told him she would pray for him when he went to hell. The student asked why would he be going to hell, and why he got an F on his paper. The teacher told him that Catholicism is against gay marriage. The student looked at her for a minute, then said aloud, "I'm gay." The teacher kicked him out of class as if he had said fuck or worshiped Satan. A girl in the back of class who had a boyfriend and was obviously straight got up and left too.

If you would leave the classroom, repost this. It doesn't matter if you're straight, bi, or gay. It doesn't matter if you're catholic or not. Everyone is a human being and deserves happiness. But if you don't it doesn't mean you wouldn't, necessarily *has lazy flist* *giggles* ;;)

JOB-MAN HAS NOT CALLED YET. >_< HE WAS SUPPOSED TO CALL TODAY. *smites* Stoopid bastard man.

SOOOOOO many new icons, lots of them from potterpuffs. My favourite is the one I'm using with this post, 'cos, yes. Thanks, Amy!!!!!! *heartface* But there's also ( this one ) and ( this one ) which, yeah, is potterpuffs but I iconeded it. :D

( I've got 50 mutual friends! )

So!!! To celebrate that, and also WEEEEEEEEEE MAYBE NEW JOB WITH SCHOOL DISTRICT YAYAYAYAYAYAYAY WILL FIND OUT TOMORROW AT THE LATEST, a little peek at a Snarry that I'm working on. Just the smut. Harry was made Slytherin, and Neville is the Boy-Who-Lived. Oh, and Harry was betrothed to Severus, and also, OMGSONOT BETA'D. :D Oh, and it's not Choice. ;)

( Here you go! )

( HBP, fandom, and why Book Six was good. SPOILERWOO!!!!!!!!!! )

And yes, I'm completely aware that I really have no right to talk about anyone's lack of writing skill, as I'm a totally shit writer myself :D

Cayce and Corye don't quite get it. They don't really understand what it's like when no one has ever been attracted to you, that for some people it's not a question of "when", it's a question of "if". Susan might get it, I think. She's alone, and older. She might understand better than most what wakes me up every day, even knowing I'll never know love, neither carnal nor romantic. She might understand what it is to have to consider the possibility of hiring a strawberry for a night to take care of things that cannot be taken care of any other way. Maybe. She might understand what it is that makes me tamp down on a crush so hard, ignore it so firmly, that fear and self-hate make thoughts reality.

How do you explain this to someone without them assuming you're searching for pity; that you've just accepted a lack of romance in your life as fact? Many people see it as a bleak, horrid existence. In some ways it is. To grow old and lonely, to never know a lover's touch... for most people these are things they take for granted, even if they've never had them. When confronted with someone who has accepted a romanceless life the instinct is to shy away, or deny, or offer platitudes that do not track with one's experiences. "You'll find someone, really." Oh? How do you know this? "You won't have to live like this forever, I just know it!" Like what? Making my own decisions and not having to explain them to anyone? Not having a lover to use as a crutch? Never bending under the force of an abusive man, the way my sister does? "Oh, but you're really attractive!" No, I'm not, sweetie, and further I don't appreciate pretty lies. Let's not pretend we are something we're not. "But you're so nice!" And how do you think I got this way? It wasn't the influence of a lover. It was years of watching others laugh in my face, knowing how it felt when I saw it happen to someone else. People's lives are bad enough as it is without petty cruelty - without basic respect from other human beings.

I am not to be pitied. I wouldn't appreciate being pitied. Not all lives are meant for every good thing. Living without romance is just trading one good thing for another - I simply have not yet had a chance to discover what thing that might be.

I know very little about some of the people on my friends list. Some people I know relatively well. I read your fic, or we have something else in common and we chat occasionally. Some of you I hardly know at all. Perhaps you lurk, for whatever reason. But you friended me and I thank you.

But here's a thought: why not take this opportunity to tell me a little something about yourself. Any old thing at all. Just so the next time I see your name I can say: "Ah, there's so and so...she likes office supplies."

I'd love it if every single person who friended me would do this. Yes, even you people who I know really well. Then post this in your own journal, if you like. :D

( Mary )

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( Emmanuel )

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( Sarai )

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( Paul )

go here. THE BADGER ORDERS IT.

For my friends who are either childfree, or, like me, incapable of having children and down about that. This post on childfree is really good :D

ETA: changed "childless" to "childfree", for obvious reasons *wink*

What did my sister mean by this?:

Me: but i don't think the two are mutually exclusive at my age - i mean, living at home and being an adult.
Sister: no either you are one or you do the other

prequel: a literary or dramatic work whose story precedes that of an earlier work.

That's it, folks. A PRE-EXISTING WORK CANNOT BE CALLED A PREQUEL. For example, Book 1 of the Harry Potter series is not a bloody prequel to Book 2. Book 1 is the original, pre-existing work. All that came after is called a sequel. Likewise, Book 2 is not a prequel to Book 3, nor Book 3 to Book 4, etc. A prequel is a story that was written or published after the pre-existing work but is set before. If Rowling wrote the story of Harry's years before Hogwarts, or Hermione's, or Ron's, or if she wrote about the years the Marauders were at Hogwarts, that would be a prequel.

Please, never EVER again use the word 'prequel' to refer to the pre-existing work, i.e. "This story has a prequel that was written two months ago!!!" It's wrong. Find some other way to refer to the pre-existing work, okay? Nor is "Prequel-that-was-written-after" correct (please see this page, under the summary for Oh, Just This Once). "Prequel-that-was-written-after" is repetitive. THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS A PREQUEL THAT WAS WRITTEN/PUBLISHED BEFORE.

/rant.

I've discovered what the problem is. I can't concentrate to do anything, not write my tags, not my homework, nothing, while my father is talking. And he can never, never shut his fucking mouth. Yap, yap, yap all day long.

Please pray that I get the job at Dell, okay, because I need to get the fuck out of this fucking house.

*sighs* I've started reading N Sync slash again. Okay, but to be fair, it's crossover slash with Harry Potter.

...

That doesn't make it any better, does it? *facepalm*

Anyway. I'd forgotten what I liked about it, how JC is totally insane and Justin is utterly clueless and Chris is the Voice of Reason (despite evidence to the contrary), and Lance is either OMGSOSTRAIGHT or utterly flaming, depending upon the author's view of Lance's "I'm straight. Really. Check it out, I have pretty girls on my arm! Ooh, that guy has a nice ass...." image. Joey, of course, is Straighty McStraighterson - except with the other guys. And then only sometimes, when his daughter isn't around and he can get away with it.

I loff this stuff. And it's killing me that I can't find the bloody Justin Timberlake/Weasley twins slash!!!!!!!!!!! *we needs it precious*

ETA: I've been laughing myself silly over this for the past half-hour: The Language of Hieroglyphs by arsenicjade (Bill Weasley/JC Chasez) (I almost typed Chasex there. Fitting, really.)

1.) Copy and paste this into your journal:
<*font color="yourusername"> <*b>yourusername<*/b> <*/font>
2.) Eliminate the asterisks.
2 1/2.) Replace "yourusername" with your user name.
3.) See what color you are.

isidore13

I totally only see black.

-- Turn the AC down to 70°
-- Take bath in OMG HUGE TUB
-- Become even Fatter through judicious application of mass amounts of naughty food
-- Read/watch/write pr0n :D
-- Bake Amy's loffly punkin cookies 'cos OMG SO YUMMY
-- Play pool (billiards, that is)
-- Pretend sister's house is mine
-- Whatever else occurs to me :D

Yeah, so. I'm trying to update the links thing with different pairings that I haven't read in a while, or never read. And yet, what do I do but keep going back to snarry? *facepalm* it's sucked me in, like a... thingy. It's evil, I tell you. Evil.

omg! *flails* my bank approved me for a credit card!!!!! I feel like Ford Prefect, except much more panicky. Who would approve a credit card for me?! Idiots, that's who. I mean. Wow. I'm so. *flails more*

Thanks to some wonderful anonymouse :D (i love you so, whoever you are!) I have got information that there is now a Yahoo! Group (eta: per the Group TOS the link has been removed from this entry - Marcy, let me know if I'm still violating it before banning me, please) for Cambiare Podentes and also AYLNO.

And we've come across lovely information attesting to the UTTER AND COMPLETE OMG LEMME HAVE A HUUUUUUUGE WHY DON'T YOU LUUUUUUUUUUURVE EVERYTHING I WRITE BNF HISSYFIT apparently to the point that her "worker bees" had to create and post fake - yes, FAKE - reviews.

Wotta bitch, for reals. *shakes head* *is utterly amused by this whole thing* *condescendingly pats aspenlight's ickle head* *cooing* does the poow bnf need hew ego scwitched and cuddwed? yes she does! yes she does!

I swear to God even lovely copperbadge isn't quite this bad - and he's been around a loooooooot longer!!

go on, aspenlight. check it out. USE YOUR REAL NAME. lol. that'd be funny!! :D they're pretty militant over there - honestly, I wouldn't if I were you, if you can't deal with a couple negative reviews, you can't handle these girls. *pats youw ickwe bnf ego*

I am SOOOOOOOOOO looking forward to catsitting for sis and sis' bf in a couple of months. Why?

1. I'll be away from Phil.

2. They have a two-person bath tub. Can anyone say looooooong hot bath? Can anyone say waste of water? :D *makes mental note to purchase bubble bath*

3. I can pretend it's my house and that I'm all grown-up (a sign of a child if ever there was one). :D

4. I'll be away from my parents.

Sis said, "You can sleep in our bed once we're gone" but, uh. No. And I can't believe she'd even suggest it, lol. Hullo, you're my sister. That's the bed you share with your boyfriend. You've had sex in that bed. *shudders* No.

And yes, I know they've probably had sex in the tub. That doesn't count for reasons I don't really understand.

Rusty and the Big Strong Fireman by Sean.

This is hilarious. Light and funny with just a pinch of kink! Rusty is nine, however - *wibbles* it might be considered pedophilia in Australia.

I was mentioned on fandom_wank!!!! *is so proud*

Of course they ignored the whole "morally against them and wouldn't join anyway" thing, because it's more wanky and therefore funner to think I'm a bitter, jealous wannabe than, say, telling the truth (that's boring, donchaknow).

Still :D

I was mentioned on fandom_wank!!!!

Inigo/Fezzik. Totally. I don't know what I was thinking, Inigo/Westley. *shakes head*

This has been the very most disappointing week ever. *wibbles* First I'm a fucking moron and lose the bloody job. And then I'm flunking both classes, because I'm lazy (and an idiot). And now... worst thing of all...

CAMBIARE PODENTES has been taken down!!!!!!

I got my copy of AYLNO in case she, in all her bitchy new miniBNFdom, decides she's going to take THAT down as well. *pouts* *really REALLY REALLY REALLY hopes this is a hoax or something*